Little Moments

Let me start by saying that 3 years old has been the hardest age so far. My sweet, cuddly, obedient, little boy turned into this independent, angry, mischievous monster. I couldn't believe the transformation and most days I still can't. I'm patiently waiting for the day my sweet boy returns. Until then there will be a lot of yelling (from him), time out (for me and him), crying, and slow breathing (from me). So, in all this craziness sweet moments rarely occur.

Yesterday, I was lucky enough to experience one of those sweet, stop-and-really-take-it-in moments. Landin still hadn't woken up from his 2 1/2 hour nap, so I went in and opened his door an took his blankets off him. (I didn't wake him up because that results in uncontrollable anger and stomping) I continued cleaning the upstairs waiting for him to wake up. A few minutes later he sleepily came walking out of his room. He asked me to holdge him and go downstairs. I picked him up and we went downstairs. I sat on the couch with him still laying on my shoulder in my arms. We sat there for probably about 5 minutes. I had my phone hooked up to our little speaker think playing songs from Pandora. As he was laying there with me rubbing his back "Don't Stop Believing" came on the station by Journey. Seems completely unrelated and useless except for that is song we played on repeat for Landin when he was a baby and couldn't sleep. We literally had this one song on a CD and played it in the car or in his room. It seemed at one point it was the only thing that could quiet him down. It seems cheesy, but in that moment I thanked God for this moment in the midst of hard, long, exhausting days. I thanked God for this little man in my lap and I saw a future where there might be more moments of quiet cuddling.

I love that little guy, but he really challenges me everyday and pushes every limit I have and ones I didn't know I had.

My Life at This Moment

     Have you ever sat down and thought is my life is exactly where it's supposed to be? I've been thinking a lot about where my life was going and where I was at. I started the year off in California helping my parents out. It was great to be back home and able to see all of my family whenever I wanted. Landin especially loved hanging out with his cousins. He even got to have a couple sleepovers. He loves his family so much and enjoys being with every single one of them. Even though we had a great time it was a LONG time to be away from Trevir. He came back to Washington on January 4th while we stayed until February 9th. Landin missed his daddy so much. I wouldn't have had it any other way though. My life was going just the way it was supposed to be. I was in exactly the place I was meant to be. I realized this when we landed at the airport and saw Trevir down on one knee with this beautiful ring in his hand. As he proposed I thought I wouldn't want my life to be any other way. I am so thankful that I was able to stay in California for so long without having to rush back to a job. I am thankful that Trevir works so hard to provide for our family and I can stay home with Landin.

     So, I am home and have the overwhelming happy feeling that my life is exactly where it is supposed to be! It feels great to feel this way and be happy and content with my life.

WE ARE ENGAGED!!